TGIF

It seems that always planning for the future is a great way to set goals. At least that is how I have always looked at it, but lately I have been wanting to return to the past.

Life as I remember is was so much different.
I would walk to the park and pick flowers. I actually would sit on the concrete slab at the park and throw flowers into peoples cars. It really made some people very happy and I think I scared some of them too! I would walk for miles all around town. Never being in a rush to get anywhere. Sometimes my friends and I would just sit and talk. (no texting back then) Sometimes we would go downtown to the fountains. Or drive to the Rhododendron gardens. Or cruse Mt Tabor. Or drive to Multnomah Falls. Or feed the ducks at the park.
I can't remember the last time I walked to the park and picked flowers. Not worrying that i had to be somewhere. Let alone there are never any flowers in Idaho Falls.
I didn't care if I had any money in my pocket I didn't need any. I didn't worry about what to fix for dinner because if I did or didn't eat it really didn't matter.
I never worried about clothes, or for that matter as long as I had transportation, be it my parents car, bus or walking I really didn't want for anything. Life was simpler.
So I want to know what changed? How did everything get out of hand?
Is really worth it? The things, I mean. Are things really worth it?

I seems to me they just complicate everything.

If you want a car you have to get a job to pay for it. If you get a job you have to buy clothes to go to work. If you go to work you can only eat at certain times whether you are hungry or not. You have to go to bed at night even when you aren't really tired and get up feeling exhausted.

Then the price of gas goes up, and so does everything else.

It just keeps going and going.

May be I need to go pick some flowers.
I wish I could tell myself it was OK. I think I forgot how.
I think I am lost.

But don't worry about me. Today is Friday and by Sunday everything should be fine again.